Holding Back The Day

Learned of suffocation the hard way
Suffering under the ice
The sea has closed in around me
A cocoon forms in the shape of my skin
Nothing in or out
Light has ceased and everything is grey
How can the world walk in radiance,
When the sun now lives in a cage?
Brought forth out of the cave
Where dancing reeds cast shadows amidst dying flames
That was my world
Rusty chains broke under the weight of curiosity
Wondering if living meant finally using my legs
The cave gave way to a kingdom
Leading me down a path into the center of town
Buildings and houses were burned
Ash met the air and torment crawled bleeding with severed limbs
"Useless useless!" cried the prophets
"Everything is useless!"
What's the point of moving forward when I can't even crave existing?
Yet there is something that keeps on pushing
A part that wants to see what lies behind the mountains
The twin within knows it will only be more hills covered in bodies
Those who went before and lost their way
Its no longer becomes about just breathing
It now has everything to do with motivation
To peer over the edge and will myself to jump
Why is it that the smell of death lingers in the breeze?
There has to be more to living
But all my being stands against it