Look into the eyes of the dead one
Sit across from the devil and never even know it
Horns not of the head but of the mouth
Yet the fangs and claws could never disappear so quick
From the blackness I came, and you think that goes away?
I grabbed all who stood against me and devoured
And you sit and wonder how I come off as cold
What would you rather have,
The heat of rage baring down on you like hell flipped upside down
Or the cold that can look you dead in the eyes and steal your soul?
Sever your tongue if you think that you can speak against me
Lie after lie now you lay down in a grave covered in lye
Burn for me and tell me that the freedom I've found has come so easy
Without pain or blood or regret or responsibility
I arose from ashes of a burning childhood to find my relief
I took hold of the horns of Satan and made them my own
I became the conqueror that bares witness to the fact that war is hell
And I am the god of war that descends on you with a thousand nations of the damned
Call up your best men at arms and let them look upon their future
Swords clashing in the heavenly realms tell the story that I have come for blood
My have the tides turned now that they run red
Break the seal and the cycle and release the dead to consume the living
Let me lead them as their general in disarray and demise
I have filled this heart with hate to make it a stone
In order that I will never go back to being that child
That had it ripped out and stepped on
Told I was nothing and spit on and made to believe
That my ship had sailed and I was left alone
And raised alone I took up the cauldron of war
Becoming a child of the dark and a student of its deeds
I believed that I was a monster so the monster is what I have become
You spoil the undeserving and the sons of kings are left to starve
Well I won't have that not as long as I have breath in these lungs
I will not have my soul returned to ruin after it took me years to climb out of that grave
Now I hold the keys of power and I bring the pain
So tell me again why people don't like me and fancy me cold and removed
Tell me again the excuse they use for looking once and assuming they know
Have they been at the gates of hell and brought back to life to have it all melt away?
How can they judge the one who has faced judgement and fought it back to win
To roll the stone away and come out of the grave in a power that came from above
How the fuck do they think they know me and tell me why it matters
I will shit on the graves of all mankind if only just to make me feel better
I live for me now and no one else will take it
I've had the life smashed out of me before and no one will ever get to take it again
I have filled this heart with cold hard death and its no wonder my face is harsh
Let me spew my filth into the ears of them who have them to hear
Breaking the hearts of generations to come with my story
Don't ever tell me what they think of me because they'll only turn up dead
And by my hand or by my curse it doesn't matter because I'll send them all straight to hell
Monday, March 10, 2014
Monday, February 24, 2014
Machine Gun Kelly
And hear I come blazing again on fire from the hot rage
Got a domain name now and it's my name to know
No one else can know and no one else will know
Look through the curtains as the wind blows in the window
See me standing over a body with bloody hands
Woke up the next morning with a headache
Couldn't remember what I did the day before
Except for the note in my pants that said
"Guess what you just killed somebody"
How could I have let the demons loose
Unsolved murder front page on the internet
They're looking for me and they won't find me because it wasn't me
It was some monster that my therapists says is a character created by introspective thinking
I had to be mean I had to be ruthless because nobody loved me
I was alone as a little kid so now I sit here a rabble rouser
Making music for kids that just don't give a fuck about breathing in and out
And now you will see what it's like when the words just flow straight
So now all I want to do is blow up the world with me in it
Bobbing my head up and down with a grimace on my face because it hurts but I still fucking love it
So here I come guns blazing being the gangster your mother warned you would come
When you showed too much skin at a club attracting the wrong kind of attention
I am the devil made in the image of every evil thing that world loved and called good
As they threw it on their children calling it love but the sex was more like rape and molestation
Put me in a room with the thugs that did those things to the next generation
I was once one of those kids that cried from remorse because I hated everything about me
Now I love the heat that flies off me when I'm a rage and I'm grabbing my hair and tearing it out
I swear I can't take a shit it's all I think about and that is getting my revenge
Vengeance is mine and today I am the God made to look man made
Put the weapon in my hand and let me spray and pray and cry out for forgiveness
But not really caring if I get it or not because I want to be in hell with my enemies
Giving them more hell as they sit in flames being tortured all trying to get away from me
How did this get here
How far we've gotten from the beginning
You see how the mind gets when the focus of hate takes over
Man this has taken on a persona all its own and I'm not ready to pay for it
Let me steal what is needed to be kind of the world
Fuck that just let me be Al Capone
Sifilis tearing apart my mind maybe then I won't be able to think back on my past
I don't want to be the cage for the monsters to live in anymore
Yet here they come running down the street jumping out of strange clouds
I am the beast and I'm here to stay but damn I hate this life
Make me your enemy so you and I can tear it all apart
For fucks sake give me a break I wish for once I could write something nice
But that's not me and everyone knows that
Peace out it's too late to get all this emotion fired up
Got a domain name now and it's my name to know
No one else can know and no one else will know
Look through the curtains as the wind blows in the window
See me standing over a body with bloody hands
Woke up the next morning with a headache
Couldn't remember what I did the day before
Except for the note in my pants that said
"Guess what you just killed somebody"
How could I have let the demons loose
Unsolved murder front page on the internet
They're looking for me and they won't find me because it wasn't me
It was some monster that my therapists says is a character created by introspective thinking
I had to be mean I had to be ruthless because nobody loved me
I was alone as a little kid so now I sit here a rabble rouser
Making music for kids that just don't give a fuck about breathing in and out
And now you will see what it's like when the words just flow straight
So now all I want to do is blow up the world with me in it
Bobbing my head up and down with a grimace on my face because it hurts but I still fucking love it
So here I come guns blazing being the gangster your mother warned you would come
When you showed too much skin at a club attracting the wrong kind of attention
I am the devil made in the image of every evil thing that world loved and called good
As they threw it on their children calling it love but the sex was more like rape and molestation
Put me in a room with the thugs that did those things to the next generation
I was once one of those kids that cried from remorse because I hated everything about me
Now I love the heat that flies off me when I'm a rage and I'm grabbing my hair and tearing it out
I swear I can't take a shit it's all I think about and that is getting my revenge
Vengeance is mine and today I am the God made to look man made
Put the weapon in my hand and let me spray and pray and cry out for forgiveness
But not really caring if I get it or not because I want to be in hell with my enemies
Giving them more hell as they sit in flames being tortured all trying to get away from me
How did this get here
How far we've gotten from the beginning
You see how the mind gets when the focus of hate takes over
Man this has taken on a persona all its own and I'm not ready to pay for it
Let me steal what is needed to be kind of the world
Fuck that just let me be Al Capone
Sifilis tearing apart my mind maybe then I won't be able to think back on my past
I don't want to be the cage for the monsters to live in anymore
Yet here they come running down the street jumping out of strange clouds
I am the beast and I'm here to stay but damn I hate this life
Make me your enemy so you and I can tear it all apart
For fucks sake give me a break I wish for once I could write something nice
But that's not me and everyone knows that
Peace out it's too late to get all this emotion fired up
No Title
Calm down and come back
Trying a new thought experiment
Write just what comes up with no thought
No title to put my mind on a track
I was going to write something but I forget
So I figured that I would just let the words flow
Probably won't be the best thing I have ever wrote
No words come yet the rhyme still stays in my head
Nothing comes and I'm trying to fight off the blank stare
Sometimes I just have to stop and think
Battling my way out of the white room
Just trying to think for once without some kind of bait
And it makes me really stop and think
What do I really have going on up there?
Where does it go and what does it mean?
Totally free styling right now and that's alright
Should I write another scathing review of my life,
Beating down mommy and daddy,
Or about some bitch that stabbed me in the back?
Nothing makes me more happy than being mad and blistering the keyboard
Letting out all my hate on a digital template
Writing till my fingers bleed like hurry up and give me a tampon to cauterize this thing
Laughing at how out there and grotesque my mind can really be
Maybe I should finish this beer and hit the sheets
Or maybe I should just keep going and see what comes
Ghosts ghosts and more ghosts
Vile villains fill the space and the trauma of my life is relived
My memories are like a disease and I can't help but spread the virus
I'm not just certain I'm positive that I'm sick and there's no coming back
Man this shit is going nowhere and the journey I'm on I can't afford to be going backwards
Turn it off I'm done good night folks time to die
That last line really made me laugh
Okay this is it I'm out
Trying a new thought experiment
Write just what comes up with no thought
No title to put my mind on a track
I was going to write something but I forget
So I figured that I would just let the words flow
Probably won't be the best thing I have ever wrote
No words come yet the rhyme still stays in my head
Nothing comes and I'm trying to fight off the blank stare
Sometimes I just have to stop and think
Battling my way out of the white room
Just trying to think for once without some kind of bait
And it makes me really stop and think
What do I really have going on up there?
Where does it go and what does it mean?
Totally free styling right now and that's alright
Should I write another scathing review of my life,
Beating down mommy and daddy,
Or about some bitch that stabbed me in the back?
Nothing makes me more happy than being mad and blistering the keyboard
Letting out all my hate on a digital template
Writing till my fingers bleed like hurry up and give me a tampon to cauterize this thing
Laughing at how out there and grotesque my mind can really be
Maybe I should finish this beer and hit the sheets
Or maybe I should just keep going and see what comes
Ghosts ghosts and more ghosts
Vile villains fill the space and the trauma of my life is relived
My memories are like a disease and I can't help but spread the virus
I'm not just certain I'm positive that I'm sick and there's no coming back
Man this shit is going nowhere and the journey I'm on I can't afford to be going backwards
Turn it off I'm done good night folks time to die
That last line really made me laugh
Okay this is it I'm out
Memories Replayed in Shadows
Looking back over my life and I see a line formed in the sand
Step over to the current or go back in time on the inside and live it all out one more time
Again and again I remember falling
Being a little kid locking myself away in a closet
Called myself the spawn of Satan and hating everything that came out of me
But I remember seeing angels back in those days
Trying so hard to attach myself to them just so I could get through
Dilemmas arose every time another one of you walked out on me
Or how many times I should have made a first move
And you moved on past so quick right into the arms of some other prick
I remember being a rowdy teen riding a bike through dark streets
Music blaring in my ears, angry and intense I was set to kill
But I only cared about getting what I had to get
Another move and another step closer to doing things I should have never seen
Yet I can't help but think as I look back how different it would have been
If I would have just opened up but it was too hard
I came with too much self loathing, too much defeat, too little respect
Now I lay in freezing sheets sweating from the heat thinking back
I remember this one chick loved me but I couldn't say it back I was too afraid
She was the best thing a little boy could ask for yet I couldn't find the strength for commitment
Maybe I was just too immature, maybe it was a good thing that you fell out of sight
Still I find myself thinking of you and about what you're doing even if you're married
I remember my first real girlfriend and how she fucking walked out on me
I held her so high up in the sky and she dropped the weight of the world on me with the death of her mommy
I was just a kid what did I even know
Even dropped out of high school because I couldn't take the pain of it all
I thought she was my ticket out of all the garbage
Instead she just added to it like weights on the rack
I remember the girl that was so dark and brooding and how she used to hit me
Part of me liked it for the attention it gained to my ego
But how many times I wanted to turn around and smack the fuck out of that bitch
Still loved her though even though she drove me crazy
Walked out of my life when the worst thing that ever happened to me walked in
Older girl telling little old me that she loved me
Blonde hair and rocking body all I knew was that it was like walking in a dream
Year after year went by and all I saw was the huge decline
Morals went out the window and you put yourself in a situation that almost landed me in jail
Could have killed that motherfucker that raped you but I didn't and took you back
Even after you lied to me about it and fucked some punk because you were out of your mind
Now you've got a kid that was almost mine with an old man that you were fucking when I wasn't looking
And all that time there was a great girl that I saw looking at me
Beautiful in every way but I never made a move because I actually respected you
Bitch now she's married to some other dude and I even DJ'ed the wedding
How hard it was to see her dancing with some man that I knew wasn't right for her
Even with my girl at the time I couldn't help but think to what it would have been like
You and I together, but at least I see that you're happy so for that I'm kind of glad
But I have a great girl now and she's my best friend
Though it doesn't help me forget all the little flings that took place
Lunch break back in 08 and this chick that I thought I liked came and poured soda on my feet
Or what about that one girl that held my hand before she dropped me like a hot plate
All due to being afraid of her daddy, little did she know I would have knocked his old ass out
Steal her away from all her bad dreams and been the savior she always needed
That's not even mentioning the girl that used to call me from up north
Wanting so bad to escape her family she even sent me naked pictures to sway me to get her
Or what about that crazy bitch that calls me up thinking that my myspace pictures were cute
Her brother scams me telling me he's the cops saying she's been upducted
Scared the fuck out of me I thought I had a court date somewhere out of state
I was gonna run from the judge but then it turns out I was just gonna have to kill the bastard
Calls me saying it was all fake and then drops off the planet
Gets back at me six months later telling me she's pregnant and that she wishes I was the daddy
How many times I got out of tough situations and all thanks to God
Almost to thirty and I still couldn't handle a kid
But still I hear them and their fake fucking words in my dreams and I wake up screaming
How dare you say you love me when you wouldn't do shit about it
Went to the other side and met a good girl but she was so good she couldn't have a good time
Broke her heart and her mommy came running up mad and all upset
Honestly back then I didn't give a fuck about it but how quick things would change
I remember this one little girl that wouldn't kiss me because I was with the aforementioned chick
She was more respectful than I was but I didn't care getting it in was all that mattered
So hungry for love I saw her years later and she looked like shit
Glad I escaped another close call I even had to laugh at the younger me
Can't believe I almost got scammed again
Or how about the time the girl that was on heroin tried to get at me
I remember thanking God that my luck was finally gonna change
But she never called back and when I heard the news I cried a sigh of relief
Just like the girl that called me saying I was marriage material yet wouldn't answer my calls
If you didn't like me you just should have said it bitch
You wouldn't have been the first girl to let me down
Mommy put me down as a baby and never came back to get me
My heart was hard back then so it would have been nothing new
Man I can't help but think where is all this coming from
Bridging the old me with the new me I can't believe all of this
I thought it was gone, lost to the fires of my rage that burned my mind down
The haunting of my past, will they ever leave me?
I'm starting to see them all everywhere and if they only took shape I would tell them
I'm sorry for what I did to you but fuck off I'm my own man now
So I rebuke these shadows now get the fuck out of my life
Step over to the current or go back in time on the inside and live it all out one more time
Again and again I remember falling
Being a little kid locking myself away in a closet
Called myself the spawn of Satan and hating everything that came out of me
But I remember seeing angels back in those days
Trying so hard to attach myself to them just so I could get through
Dilemmas arose every time another one of you walked out on me
Or how many times I should have made a first move
And you moved on past so quick right into the arms of some other prick
I remember being a rowdy teen riding a bike through dark streets
Music blaring in my ears, angry and intense I was set to kill
But I only cared about getting what I had to get
Another move and another step closer to doing things I should have never seen
Yet I can't help but think as I look back how different it would have been
If I would have just opened up but it was too hard
I came with too much self loathing, too much defeat, too little respect
Now I lay in freezing sheets sweating from the heat thinking back
I remember this one chick loved me but I couldn't say it back I was too afraid
She was the best thing a little boy could ask for yet I couldn't find the strength for commitment
Maybe I was just too immature, maybe it was a good thing that you fell out of sight
Still I find myself thinking of you and about what you're doing even if you're married
I remember my first real girlfriend and how she fucking walked out on me
I held her so high up in the sky and she dropped the weight of the world on me with the death of her mommy
I was just a kid what did I even know
Even dropped out of high school because I couldn't take the pain of it all
I thought she was my ticket out of all the garbage
Instead she just added to it like weights on the rack
I remember the girl that was so dark and brooding and how she used to hit me
Part of me liked it for the attention it gained to my ego
But how many times I wanted to turn around and smack the fuck out of that bitch
Still loved her though even though she drove me crazy
Walked out of my life when the worst thing that ever happened to me walked in
Older girl telling little old me that she loved me
Blonde hair and rocking body all I knew was that it was like walking in a dream
Year after year went by and all I saw was the huge decline
Morals went out the window and you put yourself in a situation that almost landed me in jail
Could have killed that motherfucker that raped you but I didn't and took you back
Even after you lied to me about it and fucked some punk because you were out of your mind
Now you've got a kid that was almost mine with an old man that you were fucking when I wasn't looking
And all that time there was a great girl that I saw looking at me
Beautiful in every way but I never made a move because I actually respected you
Bitch now she's married to some other dude and I even DJ'ed the wedding
How hard it was to see her dancing with some man that I knew wasn't right for her
Even with my girl at the time I couldn't help but think to what it would have been like
You and I together, but at least I see that you're happy so for that I'm kind of glad
But I have a great girl now and she's my best friend
Though it doesn't help me forget all the little flings that took place
Lunch break back in 08 and this chick that I thought I liked came and poured soda on my feet
Or what about that one girl that held my hand before she dropped me like a hot plate
All due to being afraid of her daddy, little did she know I would have knocked his old ass out
Steal her away from all her bad dreams and been the savior she always needed
That's not even mentioning the girl that used to call me from up north
Wanting so bad to escape her family she even sent me naked pictures to sway me to get her
Or what about that crazy bitch that calls me up thinking that my myspace pictures were cute
Her brother scams me telling me he's the cops saying she's been upducted
Scared the fuck out of me I thought I had a court date somewhere out of state
I was gonna run from the judge but then it turns out I was just gonna have to kill the bastard
Calls me saying it was all fake and then drops off the planet
Gets back at me six months later telling me she's pregnant and that she wishes I was the daddy
How many times I got out of tough situations and all thanks to God
Almost to thirty and I still couldn't handle a kid
But still I hear them and their fake fucking words in my dreams and I wake up screaming
How dare you say you love me when you wouldn't do shit about it
Went to the other side and met a good girl but she was so good she couldn't have a good time
Broke her heart and her mommy came running up mad and all upset
Honestly back then I didn't give a fuck about it but how quick things would change
I remember this one little girl that wouldn't kiss me because I was with the aforementioned chick
She was more respectful than I was but I didn't care getting it in was all that mattered
So hungry for love I saw her years later and she looked like shit
Glad I escaped another close call I even had to laugh at the younger me
Can't believe I almost got scammed again
Or how about the time the girl that was on heroin tried to get at me
I remember thanking God that my luck was finally gonna change
But she never called back and when I heard the news I cried a sigh of relief
Just like the girl that called me saying I was marriage material yet wouldn't answer my calls
If you didn't like me you just should have said it bitch
You wouldn't have been the first girl to let me down
Mommy put me down as a baby and never came back to get me
My heart was hard back then so it would have been nothing new
Man I can't help but think where is all this coming from
Bridging the old me with the new me I can't believe all of this
I thought it was gone, lost to the fires of my rage that burned my mind down
The haunting of my past, will they ever leave me?
I'm starting to see them all everywhere and if they only took shape I would tell them
I'm sorry for what I did to you but fuck off I'm my own man now
So I rebuke these shadows now get the fuck out of my life
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Murder Mystery: The Killer Is Me
Sneak into your house
I warm fire glows in the furnance
Coming down the chimney
Covered in ash turned black like the feet of frostbite victims
This Grinch doesn't want to steal your Christmas
He has come instead to kill you and your family
Murder steal rape pillage
A pirates life for me on this night the eve we celebrate the son of God
And only he can save you from me
I've taken a whole lot of pills and washed them down with a pack of adult beverages
Mescaline and speed mix it up in a bottle and swallow it with some PCP
I'm a fucking freight train now storming through your living room
Swords and knives killing wives bashing in brains of husbands and children
Burning houses down in the middle of the night
Told the police it was just to stay warm and to watch the pretty colors
You thought just because I was white that I didn't roll hard
Gangsters with guns and clubs, bayonets and fish hooks hooked to boots
You think I don't know about that kind of life
I'm the devil and I swear by my own name murder because that's my middle initial
All I want to do is wake up and burn the world down
No manifesto I belong to the small group
That wants nothing more than to watch the world crumble for no reason
But it has to start somewhere
And how bout that this is the only thing that I'm fucking good at
Kill of be killed isn't the mindset that I live through
It's kill and kill more pile up the bodies a billion deep
Instinct set to slash anything that I see moving
First I'll start in your house before I move through the rest of the block
There is the sound of weeping as the proverbial mother cries out
Lost one son to the crack and the other to multiple gunshot wounds
I am not gonna go out like a pussy and fire at you from a moving car
I'm gonna go up on your porch and kick in the door
Pull out pointed fingers and make fake sound effects just pretending to kill you
All before Jim Bowie makes an appearance
Come at me with your heat but just know this I don't believe in dying
Only murder and you'll never be able to swing the blade hard enough to cut my veins open
I am the masked killer on the loose coming in your children's window
So sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite
Because the man under the bed is me and yes I am a monster who is ready to feed
I warm fire glows in the furnance
Coming down the chimney
Covered in ash turned black like the feet of frostbite victims
This Grinch doesn't want to steal your Christmas
He has come instead to kill you and your family
Murder steal rape pillage
A pirates life for me on this night the eve we celebrate the son of God
And only he can save you from me
I've taken a whole lot of pills and washed them down with a pack of adult beverages
Mescaline and speed mix it up in a bottle and swallow it with some PCP
I'm a fucking freight train now storming through your living room
Swords and knives killing wives bashing in brains of husbands and children
Burning houses down in the middle of the night
Told the police it was just to stay warm and to watch the pretty colors
You thought just because I was white that I didn't roll hard
Gangsters with guns and clubs, bayonets and fish hooks hooked to boots
You think I don't know about that kind of life
I'm the devil and I swear by my own name murder because that's my middle initial
All I want to do is wake up and burn the world down
No manifesto I belong to the small group
That wants nothing more than to watch the world crumble for no reason
But it has to start somewhere
And how bout that this is the only thing that I'm fucking good at
Kill of be killed isn't the mindset that I live through
It's kill and kill more pile up the bodies a billion deep
Instinct set to slash anything that I see moving
First I'll start in your house before I move through the rest of the block
There is the sound of weeping as the proverbial mother cries out
Lost one son to the crack and the other to multiple gunshot wounds
I am not gonna go out like a pussy and fire at you from a moving car
I'm gonna go up on your porch and kick in the door
Pull out pointed fingers and make fake sound effects just pretending to kill you
All before Jim Bowie makes an appearance
Come at me with your heat but just know this I don't believe in dying
Only murder and you'll never be able to swing the blade hard enough to cut my veins open
I am the masked killer on the loose coming in your children's window
So sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite
Because the man under the bed is me and yes I am a monster who is ready to feed
Black Christmas
Again I'm like a baby left at the fire station
Cold and alone you left me
Everyone has a family but I don't got one
They all thought that they knew better
Sat in a room full of strange faces
Watched them open gifts and I got nothing
Must be selfish just to want love
But I guess not
I can't even get what I most desire
Another Christmas in the trenches
Left without even a baby brother to sit and sing a carol
Brings me back to that first Christmas after you left 2 months earlier
Woke up to nothing, no gifts, no presents
Just chilled to the bone alone in an Indian families garage
Carpet on the floor dark and filthy
And I remember mailing you a box full of goodies
But shit this time around no one wanted to wait around
Had to go see your fuck up of a daughter
Not even a call on Christmas Eve to see how I was doing
Don't give a fuck that I'm the greatest thing you ever did
Made me and abandoned me
Seems like you did that shit on the same day
Why was I born into greatness and you can't deny it
Yet you won't even look my way
I got my girls daddy telling me he is going to give me all of his money
Told me he wants to help us with the wedding
And after all the calls and everything we've done for you
You don't even give a congratulations call or card or shit
Give me money like you're getting your teeth pulled
No novacane just rusty needles sticking your gums
Rolling in my grave now the sun burns flesh off because it ain't a holy day for this soul
You left me alone and on Christmas day at that
How the fuck can you say that you love me
Anything I would have given to be back in your good graces
But fuck that now all I care about is that I get mine
Yet for the life of me I can't figure out how to do that
Broke as fuck it's a joke when I look into my bank account
And you used to bitch and moan about having nothing left for us
Then you go and tell me that you used to make 2000 bucks a week
What the fuck kind of life did you give me with all of that?
Fucking nothing so here let me pay you back
Both middle fingers up when I do the math I see that that's almost 100000 a year
Then you got a tax return for all the goodwill you had given throughout the 365 you neglected my ass
Just a little kid with a dream of being something
But you had to shoot me down and crush everything I ever wanted
No support and no love and now you're trying to come around
Fuck that shit bitch you will never be what you had the chance to be
Those days are over mother fuckers
This is just another black Christmas cold and alone with nothing to show for it
Tell me to give and I'll get back
Problem is I don't believe in a God who works like that
Keep your riches and your money and I'll be the one standing in glory
I do it for me and the ones I love
And you'll never see a penny of what I make as I bestow it on the poor
My children will never know the pain that their daddy carries
Not having a family will never come about
I will always be there loving on them
And God knows you'll never see them they won't even know your names
The family tree begins with me your branches fell off dead
Burned to the ground it's starting fresh today
You left your son on Christmas and now he'll never make his way home
That plot was sold along with your tombstones
So tonight when the ghost of Christmas pasts come for a visit
I hope you shit your pants and your eyes start to bleed
They'll show you that it's too late to fix the life you fucked up
You'll see that your saint of a son is a devil waiting on blood orgies
I never got what I wanted so now you'll get what you never wanted
Merry Christmas mother fuckers your son is now dead to everything
Cold and alone you left me
Everyone has a family but I don't got one
They all thought that they knew better
Sat in a room full of strange faces
Watched them open gifts and I got nothing
Must be selfish just to want love
But I guess not
I can't even get what I most desire
Another Christmas in the trenches
Left without even a baby brother to sit and sing a carol
Brings me back to that first Christmas after you left 2 months earlier
Woke up to nothing, no gifts, no presents
Just chilled to the bone alone in an Indian families garage
Carpet on the floor dark and filthy
And I remember mailing you a box full of goodies
But shit this time around no one wanted to wait around
Had to go see your fuck up of a daughter
Not even a call on Christmas Eve to see how I was doing
Don't give a fuck that I'm the greatest thing you ever did
Made me and abandoned me
Seems like you did that shit on the same day
Why was I born into greatness and you can't deny it
Yet you won't even look my way
I got my girls daddy telling me he is going to give me all of his money
Told me he wants to help us with the wedding
And after all the calls and everything we've done for you
You don't even give a congratulations call or card or shit
Give me money like you're getting your teeth pulled
No novacane just rusty needles sticking your gums
Rolling in my grave now the sun burns flesh off because it ain't a holy day for this soul
You left me alone and on Christmas day at that
How the fuck can you say that you love me
Anything I would have given to be back in your good graces
But fuck that now all I care about is that I get mine
Yet for the life of me I can't figure out how to do that
Broke as fuck it's a joke when I look into my bank account
And you used to bitch and moan about having nothing left for us
Then you go and tell me that you used to make 2000 bucks a week
What the fuck kind of life did you give me with all of that?
Fucking nothing so here let me pay you back
Both middle fingers up when I do the math I see that that's almost 100000 a year
Then you got a tax return for all the goodwill you had given throughout the 365 you neglected my ass
Just a little kid with a dream of being something
But you had to shoot me down and crush everything I ever wanted
No support and no love and now you're trying to come around
Fuck that shit bitch you will never be what you had the chance to be
Those days are over mother fuckers
This is just another black Christmas cold and alone with nothing to show for it
Tell me to give and I'll get back
Problem is I don't believe in a God who works like that
Keep your riches and your money and I'll be the one standing in glory
I do it for me and the ones I love
And you'll never see a penny of what I make as I bestow it on the poor
My children will never know the pain that their daddy carries
Not having a family will never come about
I will always be there loving on them
And God knows you'll never see them they won't even know your names
The family tree begins with me your branches fell off dead
Burned to the ground it's starting fresh today
You left your son on Christmas and now he'll never make his way home
That plot was sold along with your tombstones
So tonight when the ghost of Christmas pasts come for a visit
I hope you shit your pants and your eyes start to bleed
They'll show you that it's too late to fix the life you fucked up
You'll see that your saint of a son is a devil waiting on blood orgies
I never got what I wanted so now you'll get what you never wanted
Merry Christmas mother fuckers your son is now dead to everything
Monday, December 9, 2013
Tis The Season
It doesn't feel like Christmas and I don't know why
Maybe because it isn't cold enough
I won't have you to look me up and down and scoff
Maybe because I won't get any gifts
I literally won't have to open a box of disappointments
Maybe because I don't see you acting strange
Knowing now why all those holidays turned into blood baths
You didn't want to even be around us
Sometimes I wished that you never came home from work
Got all these emotions in this season of giving
But for the life of me all I want to give you
Is a big FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER WITH TWO MIDDLE FINGERS
Maybe this year I'll give you your .38 back
One bullet at a time bastard
Just like the arrows you used to fire at me
Get a little kid to cry
Yes sir that's what makes you man
Good job you got your family to hate you
Have a happy new year
Alone in a retirement home
Fireworks go off but suddenly a rush of blood to the back of your neck
It's the bullet hole in the back of your head leaking
I stole your .40 caliber dad
Here I want to give it back
The exit wound blew out your face
So now I'll never be able to tell you that I'm sorry
The way you used to look in my eyes and tell me lies
This is a crazy Christmas sermon ladies and gentlemen
Tonight I stand before you on this holiest of evenings
A confessed madman and straight up killer
Maybe this is why it doesn't feel like Christmas anymore
Maybe for the first time I feel like I'm in control
Or maybe it's because I'm gonna spend 2014 behind iron bars
Who knows lets see how December plays out
Tis the season to see your family bleed
Get ready everybody the monsters are out to play
Maybe because it isn't cold enough
I won't have you to look me up and down and scoff
Maybe because I won't get any gifts
I literally won't have to open a box of disappointments
Maybe because I don't see you acting strange
Knowing now why all those holidays turned into blood baths
You didn't want to even be around us
Sometimes I wished that you never came home from work
Got all these emotions in this season of giving
But for the life of me all I want to give you
Is a big FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER WITH TWO MIDDLE FINGERS
Maybe this year I'll give you your .38 back
One bullet at a time bastard
Just like the arrows you used to fire at me
Get a little kid to cry
Yes sir that's what makes you man
Good job you got your family to hate you
Have a happy new year
Alone in a retirement home
Fireworks go off but suddenly a rush of blood to the back of your neck
It's the bullet hole in the back of your head leaking
I stole your .40 caliber dad
Here I want to give it back
The exit wound blew out your face
So now I'll never be able to tell you that I'm sorry
The way you used to look in my eyes and tell me lies
This is a crazy Christmas sermon ladies and gentlemen
Tonight I stand before you on this holiest of evenings
A confessed madman and straight up killer
Maybe this is why it doesn't feel like Christmas anymore
Maybe for the first time I feel like I'm in control
Or maybe it's because I'm gonna spend 2014 behind iron bars
Who knows lets see how December plays out
Tis the season to see your family bleed
Get ready everybody the monsters are out to play
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