Rapist Wit

How do I start this
A confession years in the making
That there is a devil pressed up against me
Not from the vantage point of viewing in plain sight
It is from the inside out that my flesh is stretched
This demon lives within me
Cravings formed on the primal level
Instinct like an animal without the mind of man
If you thought murder was his only game
Then you thought wrong and may get eaten
Seeking to devour this beast is more than a white liar
He is a thief and he steals only one thing
Innocence the thing he never had
Always guilty from the beginning
Reaping the punishment of others
The scars of beatings form new tissue over emotions
In rage the monster thrives only knowing the way
A path of destruction where he is always the victor
Can't even walk through a room without noticing her
Speak of the devil and surly he comes
Fast as lightning and pron to whispers
Igniting a fire that at all times is being kept under
I see her everywhere
The next victim
Like a trophy to add to my collection
One more down and on to the next to be forgotten
This lust is out of control
All done through the guise of being in control
It's all about gaining back what I could never hold
Just a probationary maniac with a degree in the blood arts
Pointing back to the true fact that I can't stand my life
This thing is in me and is trying to get out
Voice like an angel with claws like a lion
Bear jaws clamp down swallowing souls ending heart beats
Going past protection this is just sickening
Forget the future let's go back and change the past
Tearing out the fetus that would never be loved
Prayers to no avail for tomorrow when I wake
I'll still have this rapists wit

*SIDE NOTE: I have not ever taken part in the raping of others nor have I ever been raped and I do not condone any sort of action that is or resembles abuse of any nature.