This Is Why My Heart Sinks

I couldn't wait to get this off my chest
To run to the lab with a pen and a pad
And make known the pain in the depths of my soul
Heard you were coming back
The only thing I could think of was "FUCK"
Not this, not today, not this week, not ever
How could this be,
I thought this was all behind me?
Why is it that my past keeps coming back to haunt me?
I was sure I was past this
The dreams had stopped and I didn't see you in every mirror
Finally I could take a ride without seeing you over my shoulder
All the anxiety came back and then these words hit my ears
How you want a relationship
Being friends with the man that you dragged through the mud
To get close to him again and befriend the women who replaced you
Threw you off your throne and who now sits enthroned
You think I'm stupid
That I would just come back with open arms
They told you who I am now
And I know that it disappoints you
To see that back in your old stomping grounds that I hold the reigns
From rags to riches this little boy became a prince to your people
Everybody forgot your name except for the ones who like to throw it around
Man this is stress that I just don't need
All of this done while eyes I wish would never see
Are held in locked gaze upon me
Wishing and hoping that you would just go home
If you don't believe there is a devil this is the proof
But I won't even give you an inch back in
So don't think for one second that I will be your baby's new daddy
The father that she should of had but that hope died
Everyday I thank God that the little girl doesn't look like me
Because I would have stolen her away from you long ago
Knowing that not only is your soul not safe
But that you hold the hand of a little one leading her to hell as well
Yet when the words came through my heart seized
Having to put up with all this mess all over again
I wish that you would just pack up and go back
Walking right into a nightmare and didn't even know it
Now with another thing to fear
I've got this beast to deal with
And this is just the kind of thing that he needs
To take over causing the world to lose control
Here it comes lady you better breeze away
There is a new side to me and it's something you'll never be ready for
Run and hide little mommy you've brought a monster to the surface