Machine Gun Kelly

And hear I come blazing again on fire from the hot rage
Got a domain name now and it's my name to know
No one else can know and no one else will know
Look through the curtains as the wind blows in the window
See me standing over a body with bloody hands
Woke up the next morning with a headache
Couldn't remember what I did the day before
Except for the note in my pants that said
"Guess what you just killed somebody"
How could I have let the demons loose
Unsolved murder front page on the internet
They're looking for me and they won't find me because it wasn't me
It was some monster that my therapists says is a character created by introspective thinking
I had to be mean I had to be ruthless because nobody loved me
I was alone as a little kid so now I sit here a rabble rouser
Making music for kids that just don't give a fuck about breathing in and out
And now you will see what it's like when the words just flow straight
So now all I want to do is blow up the world with me in it
Bobbing my head up and down with a grimace on my face because it hurts but I still fucking love it
So here I come guns blazing being the gangster your mother warned you would come
When you showed too much skin at a club attracting the wrong kind of attention
I am the devil made in the image of every evil thing that world loved and called good
As they threw it on their children calling it love but the sex was more like rape and molestation
Put me in a room with the thugs that did those things to the next generation
I was once one of those kids that cried from remorse because I hated everything about me
Now I love the heat that flies off me when I'm a rage and I'm grabbing my hair and tearing it out
I swear I can't take a shit it's all I think about and that is getting my revenge
Vengeance is mine and today I am the God made to look man made
Put the weapon in my hand and let me spray and pray and cry out for forgiveness
But not really caring if I get it or not because I want to be in hell with my enemies
Giving them more hell as they sit in flames being tortured all trying to get away from me
How did this get here
How far we've gotten from the beginning
You see how the mind gets when the focus of hate takes over
Man this has taken on a persona all its own and I'm not ready to pay for it
Let me steal what is needed to be kind of the world
Fuck that just let me be Al Capone
Sifilis tearing apart my mind maybe then I won't be able to think back on my past
I don't want to be the cage for the monsters to live in anymore
Yet here they come running down the street jumping out of strange clouds
I am the beast and I'm here to stay but damn I hate this life
Make me your enemy so you and I can tear it all apart
For fucks sake give me a break I wish for once I could write something nice
But that's not me and everyone knows that
Peace out it's too late to get all this emotion fired up

No Title

Calm down and come back
Trying a new thought experiment
Write just what comes up with no thought
No title to put my mind on a track
I was going to write something but I forget
So I figured that I would just let the words flow
Probably won't be the best thing I have ever wrote
No words come yet the rhyme still stays in my head
Nothing comes and I'm trying to fight off the blank stare
Sometimes I just have to stop and think
Battling my way out of the white room
Just trying to think for once without some kind of bait
And it makes me really stop and think
What do I really have going on up there?
Where does it go and what does it mean?
Totally free styling right now and that's alright
Should I write another scathing review of my life,
Beating down mommy and daddy,
Or about some bitch that stabbed me in the back?
Nothing makes me more happy than being mad and blistering the keyboard
Letting out all my hate on a digital template
Writing till my fingers bleed like hurry up and give me a tampon to cauterize this thing
Laughing at how out there and grotesque my mind can really be
Maybe I should finish this beer and hit the sheets
Or maybe I should just keep going and see what comes
Ghosts ghosts and more ghosts
Vile villains fill the space and the trauma of my life is relived
My memories are like a disease and I can't help but spread the virus
I'm not just certain I'm positive that I'm sick and there's no coming back
Man this shit is going nowhere and the journey I'm on I can't afford to be going backwards
Turn it off I'm done good night folks time to die
That last line really made me laugh
Okay this is it I'm out

Memories Replayed in Shadows

Looking back over my life and I see a line formed in the sand
Step over to the current or go back in time on the inside and live it all out one more time
Again and again I remember falling
Being a little kid locking myself away in a closet
Called myself the spawn of Satan and hating everything that came out of me
But I remember seeing angels back in those days
Trying so hard to attach myself to them just so I could get through
Dilemmas arose every time another one of you walked out on me
Or how many times I should have made a first move
And you moved on past so quick right into the arms of some other prick
I remember being a rowdy teen riding a bike through dark streets
Music blaring in my ears, angry and intense I was set to kill
But I only cared about getting what I had to get
Another move and another step closer to doing things I should have never seen
Yet I can't help but think as I look back how different it would have been
If I would have just opened up but it was too hard
I came with too much self loathing, too much defeat, too little respect
Now I lay in freezing sheets sweating from the heat thinking back
I remember this one chick loved me but I couldn't say it back I was too afraid
She was the best thing a little boy could ask for yet I couldn't find the strength for commitment
Maybe I was just too immature, maybe it was a good thing that you fell out of sight
Still I find myself thinking of you and about what you're doing even if you're married
I remember my first real girlfriend and how she fucking walked out on me
I held her so high up in the sky and she dropped the weight of the world on me with the death of her mommy
I was just a kid what did I even know
Even dropped out of high school because I couldn't take the pain of it all
I thought she was my ticket out of all the garbage
Instead she just added to it like weights on the rack
I remember the girl that was so dark and brooding and how she used to hit me
Part of me liked it for the attention it gained to my ego
But how many times I wanted to turn around and smack the fuck out of that bitch
Still loved her though even though she drove me crazy
Walked out of my life when the worst thing that ever happened to me walked in
Older girl telling little old me that she loved me
Blonde hair and rocking body all I knew was that it was like walking in a dream
Year after year went by and all I saw was the huge decline
Morals went out the window and you put yourself in a situation that almost landed me in jail
Could have killed that motherfucker that raped you but I didn't and took you back
Even after you lied to me about it and fucked some punk because you were out of your mind
Now you've got a kid that was almost mine with an old man that you were fucking when I wasn't looking
And all that time there was a great girl that I saw looking at me
Beautiful in every way but I never made a move because I actually respected you
Bitch now she's married to some other dude and I even DJ'ed the wedding
How hard it was to see her dancing with some man that I knew wasn't right for her
Even with my girl at the time I couldn't help but think to what it would have been like
You and I together, but at least I see that you're happy so for that I'm kind of glad
But I have a great girl now and she's my best friend
Though it doesn't help me forget all the little flings that took place
Lunch break back in 08 and this chick that I thought I liked came and poured soda on my feet
Or what about that one girl that held my hand before she dropped me like a hot plate
All due to being afraid of her daddy, little did she know I would have knocked his old ass out
Steal her away from all her bad dreams and been the savior she always needed
That's not even mentioning the girl that used to call me from up north
Wanting so bad to escape her family she even sent me naked pictures to sway me to get her
Or what about that crazy bitch that calls me up thinking that my myspace pictures were cute
Her brother scams me telling me he's the cops saying she's been upducted
Scared the fuck out of me I thought I had a court date somewhere out of state
I was gonna run from the judge but then it turns out I was just gonna have to kill the bastard
Calls me saying it was all fake and then drops off the planet
Gets back at me six months later telling me she's pregnant and that she wishes I was the daddy
How many times I got out of tough situations and all thanks to God
Almost to thirty and I still couldn't handle a kid
But still I hear them and their fake fucking words in my dreams and I wake up screaming
How dare you say you love me when you wouldn't do shit about it
Went to the other side and met a good girl but she was so good she couldn't have a good time
Broke her heart and her mommy came running up mad and all upset
Honestly back then I didn't give a fuck about it but how quick things would change
I remember this one little girl that wouldn't kiss me because I was with the aforementioned chick
She was more respectful than I was but I didn't care getting it in was all that mattered
So hungry for love I saw her years later and she looked like shit
Glad I escaped another close call I even had to laugh at the younger me
Can't believe I almost got scammed again
Or how about the time the girl that was on heroin tried to get at me
I remember thanking God that my luck was finally gonna change
But she never called back and when I heard the news I cried a sigh of relief
Just like the girl that called me saying I was marriage material yet wouldn't answer my calls
If you didn't like me you just should have said it bitch
You wouldn't have been the first girl to let me down
Mommy put me down as a baby and never came back to get me
My heart was hard back then so it would have been nothing new
Man I can't help but think where is all this coming from
Bridging the old me with the new me I can't believe all of this
I thought it was gone, lost to the fires of my rage that burned my mind down
The haunting of my past, will they ever leave me?
I'm starting to see them all everywhere and if they only took shape I would tell them
I'm sorry for what I did to you but fuck off I'm my own man now
So I rebuke these shadows now get the fuck out of my life