A Different View Of Things

Never have I been so confused
Conflicted I confided in people that I had grown to hate
For years this was all about them
Nothing I did would ease me off
Going back time and again
To see me off that rock took time but I made the leap
And in the storm I found myself
Hand in hand with beauty
All I live for is to see her through
Stumbling back to things I don't understand
They offer advice and love and pour out their wealth
Once I was at their expense and now I am as their prince
What do I do with it you will sit and ask
But for the first time in so long I cannot think
I have no answer
Hearing voices that say it is all so different
Being in the midst of the battle
Makes you look at everything as if it was more harsh
Though my world is already so warped
How could it go and get so much worse?
I don't know how to be what I'm asked to be
Yet I do it without question
Looking for no payment
For once when the monsters called
Voices from the past the used to be used for death
I turned them down seeing the tears of my beloved
In a future that would be ruined
Even if it was a just kill, a righteous war, an act of mercy
Fuck! I can't think and there is no answer in the sky
Lost lost lost
A view from a world that I do not understand
Seeing through the eyes of someone with a softer perception
The spirit is willing but the flesh is unsure
Overtaking me that red demon that could silence them all
Now has to lay in a frozen state way back in a realm I can no longer access
Fate seems to have me upon a different path
But I feel like I'm eating myself alive
Wasting away, I disappear into oblivion
For what cost is what the wise will one day ask
The answer in the distance will be just as much of a question as they ask
No one no one was able to give account
Answers could not be conjured in the dark
Just tell me what do to for once make it easy
I've fallen to my knees and humbly plead 
Take this rage in my heart and use it for what is right
This is something beyond what can be fought
But in the end it will be just like the start
I feel a doom coming and there is no stopping it
Who knew that it would all come to this

Polish

You can never hide within your past
I know everything that makes you tick
And I will use it against you
To prophecy doom and break your soul
Stand still and look in my eyes
Do you see me backing up, no you fucking don't
Because I am the annihilator and I control whether you breathe or not
Polish the silver and dust off the lamps
No light will betray my shadow
I am the epitome of darkness and I want your death
Devour everything that you think will make you sweet
The taste could be the least of what I give a fuck about
You can't wash away your sins that fast
No amount of cleaning off dirty footprints will grant you from evading the hate
I saw you in the spirit
I saw you sacrifice yourself and sign your name in blood
You are mine now and in my kingdom there is no getting out
As a child you ran from man to man
Trying to find the love that you would never have
At home there was abuse
Beaten and bruised you fought back only to become an outcast
There was a hope for you
You could have turned that hatred to fuel to make a better place
But you didn't, you quit, and everyone fucking knows it
I saw you in the bathroom, just a young girl
Hovering over the tub with an old hanger in your hand
You made a mistake and a life was made but that would have ended yours
So you took the easy way out and let murder into your heart
And I was there for every moment of it
Eating it up, feasting off the blood that poured from your loins
The destroyer was there watching you from the mirror
As the little girl became a witch, altering the heart and path of God
I laughed and laughed as I saw the tears fall from fear and pain
You brought this all on yourself
You tried to run, you tried to hide, and you ran right into the arms of ignorant disease
Trapping you forever in a home that you could not clean enough because your filth was everywhere
There is no right that you can do to turn the scale in your favor
No amount of righteous work that will out due the child you pulled apart
And the hurt was so big that you could never look at yourself
You let healing slip by and you take it out on everyone else
But today I stand as the door that you must go through
And there is no getting through me
Not today and not ever
You infanticide will torture your mind forever and I will be the reminder
You could abort the child but never the searing pain
I know your ways and the witchcraft that you worship
Yet you forget that I am the antidote and nothing you do will work
All hell bows to me as king and if for a fucking moment you think that your thanks makes things alright
You are poorly mistaken, I have found my place in the world below
Let me reserve a seat for you to take
I'll shine it up real nice, up close to the shrine of evil you decorated yourself
There will be a day that I will have my vengeance, in this life or the next
And I will skull fuck you until your neck breaks and decapitation takes place
You are worthless and no price paid will save you
You're forever mine bitch and watching you suffer does nothing but appease me
And how I love to see you dying and with everyone watching I will eat off your corpse
Try to hide that fucker, go ahead and try

Nothing Comes Easy

There is a way that seems right to a man
And this is mine
I saw Satan fall like lightning, landing  on the living room floor
The darkest of all things before me
Susceptible to my blows I could end it all now
But for the love of God I am restrained
How can I let this monster live?
Forcing me to bend and contort to forms I do not recognize
No one tells me how to live anymore
No one can make me bow
No one can make me kneel
Terror stricken eyes used to stare back at me
And my enemies outnumbered the stars in the sky
Yet they all feared me
I tore through them all
Child after child I sacrificed them on the alter of my ego
Growing and building it exploded in a show of hubris
That was my downfall, that was my demise
But I got up and became something that could be loved
Now I will not have it taken all away
Crimson veins turn white as the old chill returns
It is more than just a simple reminisce
Walking back to the gravestone and digging up the grave
Unveil the corpse of that old man and let me put him on again
Is this what it will take to get past this new challenger? 
I will never be undone I will never leave
Even if it means that I will stain these hands with blood again
Throw me in jail and lose the key to forgotten thoughts
Let me rot and transform into nothing but a pile of frail skin
Drop me in the abyss I don't care as long as I win
This will not be the end of me as long as I can breath
But for fucks sake let me just get one good grip around your neck
Let me make the dark disappear just this once let me make it easy
They tell me don't even utter the thoughts
Yet they don't see what I have to go through
A trek through Hell, 5 years going on eternity
Those monsters aren't so far away
That man is just one button away
Flip the switch you fucking bitch I fucking dare you!

Shambles

Clamoring clematises, what has my world come to?
So much working the machine is oiled and spinning
Look ahead and see the future
Everything lies in shambles and the carnage reaches through the wormhole
Grabbing back at me after I've run so far away
Nothing ever good comes of this so why do I do this?
Stuck in limbo the lingo remains the same old filth
Generic and geriatric what is new has been old hat forever
Born of a new fire and a hot zeal
Set the seal upon the letter and rehash old wounds
Suddenly I can remember so many things that I blacked out
Only to wake in cold sweats remembering back to what I fought so hard that I should only hold as forgot
The saw is the law and I hear it grinding in the distance
Rails run off the road and back towards my eyes
This new era of corruption has tangible signs of the old
Must the world end like it has always been
Sick children lining the streets with laments to shut heavens
Mercy seats no longer hold the feet of enthroned powers
Divinity seems to stop and take a look back
Revealing that who were praying to all this time was a demon in priestly robes
Light the incenses of sacrilege and fall under the power of the black mass
This is not me and it never was
I was a fighter and now I spew help to the wretched
What has my life become that the darkness is clearing and I no longer have the conscious left to kill?
Soft is all, I've become a little soft
But to take in the widow and the orphan
Never before have I shown this type of philanthropy
Yet I feel it calling like the smoke from a distant inferno
Everything will burn up and I'll go back to nothing
Fears take hold and the chains return
How I had to fight to let these things go
Worried for the first time ever and trying so hard to not to be a fuck up
All the ancient internalized words haunt my thoughts
Maybe this is why I am remembering
Because the curse really isn't lifted and I'm still stuck
Waking up in hell again at least I gave it shot
Big decisions lay just beyond the horizon  
What does it take to overcome and this I'll never know
It was all worth trying let's see if someone can make sense of this rambling

Revolution

When you see the lost children with black circles under their eyes
They will look back and sing you lullabies
Praise will shine forth like the sun as they march on
You see mere infants but I see an army
Ready to rise up and put the old men to rest
A spiritual euthanasia if you will, the passing of the torch
Not by love but by force
We will steal the spotlight and turn what you knew to ash
You will die with your ways and every mention of your name
Whispered in the dark in the cloak of shadow
It will be as a nightmare told in the day to bring fear
This is our revolution
This is where we call fire down
No longer will the spirit of the serpent challenge our hand
We will take the banner and with lifted hands rejoice
The giant is dead and dogs have devoured its flesh
Now stand in awe as the ground shakes as we move
From glory to glory, victory over everything
Your upside down world will be turned up right
These children you spit on have become the end you feared
Speaking hatred sowed bitter seeds now blossoming
Hard shells ready to deny all and count the cost
Seeing that life is worth more than you made it
Your death is imminent and I smell the earth that has been dug to cover your corpse

Daredevil

Daredevil, the art in prime time to understand the dilemma
Babies crying and mothers dying and all in a day when she was older than my brother
Free exposure to pleasure but without responsibility
Never took the time for explanation in the form of simple gestures
Life lived through the mind of a man caged and now that he's out you want compassion?
Where does it stem from, the root of a man plucked from the ground only a sapling?
How do I know the difference between innuendo and the liar dressed incognito?
Paint the scene on the glass and let the light push past until retinas burn like incinerated garbage  
Systematic extinction through execution over time the truth become satire and we laugh
But I had to fight my way through the maze and mirage just to be able to set foot outside
And you laughed and pointed and told me it was unfair and that I had to believe but I want nothing of that
I am that man born blind and when asked whose sin caused the disease it was foretold that it was mine
Yet not from the past or even from the future
It was destined in eternity past that I would be brought down with the teeth and claws of the underworld
Only to be spit back up and embrace my calling as the assassin of God
Given two hands to fight with no one could have seen that the hottest fire came from my tongue
Muay thai style I used feet and elbows with falling knees to end the progression of lies that were spoken
I am not a violent man by any means but in times like these,
It's kill or be killed and judgement implies all and I mean everything
Step to me wrong or look at me wrong your face is in the pavement and I'll never be wrong
Canvas smeared like a preteen on her first cycle
Point blank the gun goes off and your life is over the line stops on the period dot
I had to be courageous just to take a look over the edge
Now I fly through night skies in dreams of realities I made up for myself
Seeing all things when I used to only see oblivion
My end and your end left to rot in the ground with worms and goblins
Take to the streets in the darkest corners of my mind and light it all on fire
Revolt and take back what is mine and claim it as ours and raise the victory banner high
Up and up we go and where we stop only the mind can know
The end of the universe the words still echo that say we are loved
But here we just rely on the spinning of this distorted orbit to feel our way through
Take the chance and redeem the plan and when it all looks good tear it down and do it again
Pleasure in the face that my perfection is keeping this city sane
Though will my bane become the fact that I can't get past the boundaries I set to keep my life in check?
I am who I am and that's all that I am but I must be who I see in the dark with closed eyes
A revolutionary on the streets with dark buildings shooting up all around
Terrorized by shooters all around in the hollows that are found from the missing pieces of childhood
It doesn't make sense but I see so clearly that there is no sense to be had
I run with a hooded cloak and bandana around my mouth through the night with Molotov gripped tight
Moral decay in exchange for the voices to be shut out, how can I survive these nights in anguish and heat?
Becoming the thing that I never thought I could see take shape
The art of murder for self preservation, becoming the Daredevil to leave the past behind
It is the end of it all and to that I sit with a smile, lean back and say goodnight

Dios del Sol

I hold to the hope that this dream comes forth
Behind my eyes lies a world that I wish all could see
Maybe then all those that decided that they could fuck with me would know
They picked the wrong man, the wrong time, and the unwisest of ploys
I am the death that comes on swift wings
To rape the life from you as you have entered the world of my visions
Wings spread wide to lock out the light as you sit sweltering under my wrath
I burn with a deep desire for revenge
That you will be lit at the stake of my vengeance alive
I hope to see you fucking die
But not before I crush the life out of you as your throat rest beneath my heel
In this place I make the rules
Down here I'm God
I will be the one who causes the sun to rise and set
And in this world there is no sun because I am the light-harbinger
The keys of death and Hyades are hung on my belt
You will burn under me and there is no escaping
Blackened buildings fill the skyline
My visions involve smoke and debris but no cries to be heard  
The land is quiet for all voices have been silenced
I stand atop the mountains and look down at my devastation
My rays reach the the ground and bounce to the clouds
But only to enhance the blood on the ground and the darkness in my heart
The heat is so extreme but the cold is deafening
Contrast formed in the depths of the crucible that was my inner turmoil
Sword and shield became as much a part of me as my own beating heart
And the blood pumped through iron veins turned black from the poison I injected
All so that the rage that you now have seen could be brought out in epic theatrics
Dig deep as you will only find relief six feet from the surface you once made your dwelling place
Smell the disease that you caused when you let forth the beast
The world has spawned a sickness and I am the cure
Born into the darkness which the most vile have only adopted but alas it has always been mine
Black hole sun burns the ground to nothing and to nothing it will all go
Dark days are ahead my friends
Come into the light of destiny and hold close the facts
I am the god of the sun and there is no turning back