A Different View Of Things

Never have I been so confused
Conflicted I confided in people that I had grown to hate
For years this was all about them
Nothing I did would ease me off
Going back time and again
To see me off that rock took time but I made the leap
And in the storm I found myself
Hand in hand with beauty
All I live for is to see her through
Stumbling back to things I don't understand
They offer advice and love and pour out their wealth
Once I was at their expense and now I am as their prince
What do I do with it you will sit and ask
But for the first time in so long I cannot think
I have no answer
Hearing voices that say it is all so different
Being in the midst of the battle
Makes you look at everything as if it was more harsh
Though my world is already so warped
How could it go and get so much worse?
I don't know how to be what I'm asked to be
Yet I do it without question
Looking for no payment
For once when the monsters called
Voices from the past the used to be used for death
I turned them down seeing the tears of my beloved
In a future that would be ruined
Even if it was a just kill, a righteous war, an act of mercy
Fuck! I can't think and there is no answer in the sky
Lost lost lost
A view from a world that I do not understand
Seeing through the eyes of someone with a softer perception
The spirit is willing but the flesh is unsure
Overtaking me that red demon that could silence them all
Now has to lay in a frozen state way back in a realm I can no longer access
Fate seems to have me upon a different path
But I feel like I'm eating myself alive
Wasting away, I disappear into oblivion
For what cost is what the wise will one day ask
The answer in the distance will be just as much of a question as they ask
No one no one was able to give account
Answers could not be conjured in the dark
Just tell me what do to for once make it easy
I've fallen to my knees and humbly plead 
Take this rage in my heart and use it for what is right
This is something beyond what can be fought
But in the end it will be just like the start
I feel a doom coming and there is no stopping it
Who knew that it would all come to this

Polish

You can never hide within your past
I know everything that makes you tick
And I will use it against you
To prophecy doom and break your soul
Stand still and look in my eyes
Do you see me backing up, no you fucking don't
Because I am the annihilator and I control whether you breathe or not
Polish the silver and dust off the lamps
No light will betray my shadow
I am the epitome of darkness and I want your death
Devour everything that you think will make you sweet
The taste could be the least of what I give a fuck about
You can't wash away your sins that fast
No amount of cleaning off dirty footprints will grant you from evading the hate
I saw you in the spirit
I saw you sacrifice yourself and sign your name in blood
You are mine now and in my kingdom there is no getting out
As a child you ran from man to man
Trying to find the love that you would never have
At home there was abuse
Beaten and bruised you fought back only to become an outcast
There was a hope for you
You could have turned that hatred to fuel to make a better place
But you didn't, you quit, and everyone fucking knows it
I saw you in the bathroom, just a young girl
Hovering over the tub with an old hanger in your hand
You made a mistake and a life was made but that would have ended yours
So you took the easy way out and let murder into your heart
And I was there for every moment of it
Eating it up, feasting off the blood that poured from your loins
The destroyer was there watching you from the mirror
As the little girl became a witch, altering the heart and path of God
I laughed and laughed as I saw the tears fall from fear and pain
You brought this all on yourself
You tried to run, you tried to hide, and you ran right into the arms of ignorant disease
Trapping you forever in a home that you could not clean enough because your filth was everywhere
There is no right that you can do to turn the scale in your favor
No amount of righteous work that will out due the child you pulled apart
And the hurt was so big that you could never look at yourself
You let healing slip by and you take it out on everyone else
But today I stand as the door that you must go through
And there is no getting through me
Not today and not ever
You infanticide will torture your mind forever and I will be the reminder
You could abort the child but never the searing pain
I know your ways and the witchcraft that you worship
Yet you forget that I am the antidote and nothing you do will work
All hell bows to me as king and if for a fucking moment you think that your thanks makes things alright
You are poorly mistaken, I have found my place in the world below
Let me reserve a seat for you to take
I'll shine it up real nice, up close to the shrine of evil you decorated yourself
There will be a day that I will have my vengeance, in this life or the next
And I will skull fuck you until your neck breaks and decapitation takes place
You are worthless and no price paid will save you
You're forever mine bitch and watching you suffer does nothing but appease me
And how I love to see you dying and with everyone watching I will eat off your corpse
Try to hide that fucker, go ahead and try

Nothing Comes Easy

There is a way that seems right to a man
And this is mine
I saw Satan fall like lightning, landing  on the living room floor
The darkest of all things before me
Susceptible to my blows I could end it all now
But for the love of God I am restrained
How can I let this monster live?
Forcing me to bend and contort to forms I do not recognize
No one tells me how to live anymore
No one can make me bow
No one can make me kneel
Terror stricken eyes used to stare back at me
And my enemies outnumbered the stars in the sky
Yet they all feared me
I tore through them all
Child after child I sacrificed them on the alter of my ego
Growing and building it exploded in a show of hubris
That was my downfall, that was my demise
But I got up and became something that could be loved
Now I will not have it taken all away
Crimson veins turn white as the old chill returns
It is more than just a simple reminisce
Walking back to the gravestone and digging up the grave
Unveil the corpse of that old man and let me put him on again
Is this what it will take to get past this new challenger? 
I will never be undone I will never leave
Even if it means that I will stain these hands with blood again
Throw me in jail and lose the key to forgotten thoughts
Let me rot and transform into nothing but a pile of frail skin
Drop me in the abyss I don't care as long as I win
This will not be the end of me as long as I can breath
But for fucks sake let me just get one good grip around your neck
Let me make the dark disappear just this once let me make it easy
They tell me don't even utter the thoughts
Yet they don't see what I have to go through
A trek through Hell, 5 years going on eternity
Those monsters aren't so far away
That man is just one button away
Flip the switch you fucking bitch I fucking dare you!